A walk down a nonlife

23?

2004-03-21T21:38:00.000-05:00

so i am 23 years old and for some reason i gave myself some crazy idea, which became a deadline: the 23rd.... do you realize that is only about 26.5 hours from right now? and about 11 of those hours i will be tossing and turning in bed and about 11 of those hours i will be watching tv. ??? what is wrong with me. i should just ......

i will end that thought before i say something i will regret. today is just another normal sunday, they're all the same, not sundays, but days. they are all the same. so now i suppose it seems i have to "blog" thing sites, WHAT IS THE POINT OF THAT?!???!??!?
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so i stayed inside all day today, yep that's right i didn't leave at all, i didn't go outside, didn't set one foot out the door. and only briefly looked out the windows. if i had the answers i would rip them up and throw them out, go figure, right?
right?

supplement to last post

2004-03-19T14:44:00.000-05:00

i was trying to point to this site: http://www.mtv.com/music/video/ for the videos
and in the beginning of the post, this site for pictures: http://www.atelier31.com/artists/russell.html
i don't know if this will work...... ginger and garlic anyone?

Second half of a day (friday afternoon edition.)

2004-03-19T14:30:00.000-05:00

If you have been thinking about things, let me know.... You can email me at monkeysyea@aol.com, if you want. . . But ANYWAY what to say oh ya! I have a couple guitars that I need to get fixed up, both need a little bridge work to get playing again. I've been working on some songs lately. They're coming along, hopefully something will solidify soon. Or sooner than later. Right now the recording quality is too disturbing. The songs sound like they were recorded in my closet with lots of tape noise. These videos on MTV are a little too weird for me. end transmission/

recap vol. 1

2004-03-18T23:41:00.000-05:00

RaRaRa
woke up with bleeding gums, had a dream i was on a ship and the world had flooded. i had to take over, a mutiny, and lead the way to land. then i had this other dream with a sideways driving car, a big old boat of a car, driving sideways with these guys, and it was a documentary i was making called "looking for gray america" about interracial friendships and relationships and race in america. they were strange dreams. i don't sleep well these days. hopefully i will sleep well soon. watching more tv. futurama is on, that adult swim on cartoon network is so funny. made a mix cd today. 19 blazin cuts, or at least semi-or-mildly blazin, or maybe drooling cuts. finally did the dishes. put lotion on my hands, now they smell fruity. ate a bit of food. goodnite.

PANDA

2004-03-18T19:53:00.000-05:00

RaRaRa
I've been thinking about panda's. i've been listening to "...and you will know us by the trail of dead" "yeah yeah yeahs" "muse" "death cab for cutie" and "modest mouse" ... i tried working on stuff but it wasn't working out right so i gave up. i walked out there in the cold, to buy some junk food and cut it with television and then shoot in the veins in my eyelids. i wrote one poem and one half-incomplete-poem. who's ready for the public? they criticisize, what's the good in that? so there are these things called reviews, written by someone who, in the act of writing becomes a "critic" but what is really the point of criticism. i was wondering about the following: Negative Postive Audience. if for example you *love* some crappy music, where are you left if a critic doesnt like that music? they hate it, you love it. but what does there opinion matter, they're not going to consume it, to buy it, to listen, to love it. so maybe there should only be *good* reviews? maybe everything should be reviewed by someone who likes the _______(insert any product here)______ and in a matter which so reflects why, how, et cetera. maybe *critics* should be replaced with *gasp* : "fans" or *reflectors*
yes, i think i would prefer to read a reflection than a criticism.
but hey, go figure. it's winter outside, cold, and what not, but thats expected, its MAINE afterall, and march....... to be continued......

Reappear

2004-03-18T12:48:00.000-05:00

RaRaRa
reappearance
it's been 10 days since the last post. j. and me went down to amherst, mass. where we will be living for about 2 years, starting in june. well that's the plan. it's really nice down there. we drove by emily d.'s house, which i will have to check out some day. the dog threw up on the floor, thats nice. i have to put the laundry away. tv, tv, tv. i am on "spring break" probably the last one i will ever have in my whole life. we got the new version of the moon and antarctica by modest mouse. i only listened once but the remaster sounds nice and the four bonus tracks are also nice. the edit on 3rd planet is strange, i thought it was the cell phone ringing the first time i heard it. i have so much work to do. my dad had surgery yesterday for vascular necrosis in his hips, i hope he is OK. tv, tv, tv. bending and warping and turning my brain into mush. go figure.

disappearing act?

2004-03-08T23:33:00.000-05:00

RaRaRa
disappearrr?<

monday

2004-03-08T23:32:00.000-05:00

RaRaRa
late, finished, behind.
the day is rolling to a close. mixes buzz around me. made cookies. ate corn on the cob for dinner. cereal for lunch and desert. checked email, worked in the library. got/heard an acoustic ver. of son of sam by e.s. - amazing. i like it better than the studio ver. i think... also got the new mod.mou. single on vinyl. but nothing to hear it on. gofigure. sleep? Pssshhuu!!

2004-03-07T17:04:00.000-05:00

entry #3
Here is my third entry/ the times are wrong for the first two for some reason. im not sure why. but that doesnt matter; anyway; i thought i had something to say. who doesnt. i am very unproductive. maybe, maybe, maybe. ill post another and after i have five posts i will have five posts. posts.

2004-03-07T16:35:00.000-05:00

WHALE ESCAPE!!!!
Hi kids, just got back from the morgue. It had this smell that reminded me of foreign motel rooms lost in memories. I hate hospital smells and love lobby's empty. People don't count/woke up cold, half open eyes.... It's march 2004, i'm about 282 months away from my birth and how many to my death? more? less? the sun is coming out. if only spring would follow. i listend to the shins, "shutes too narrow" and beck, "mutations" earier today. like i always whispered: go figure. ~gofigure~

2004-03-07T16:30:00.000-05:00

blog, blogger, blog. there is some sort of full house marathon on television. it disturbs me, why is it humming, buzzing and vibrating the cells in my skull? i should be retiring today or working hard. like an academia of inertia. clap my hands at the disguise surprise. if i could get out of this life and walk down stairs i built i would i would
so this blog thing here is some sort of thing where i can type, speak, in words, to deaf eyes and quiet ears. maybe i will find a job some day or find a deal.
crawl said the snail to the bird.
fly said the bird to the snail.